The hunt for the shade!

I know that this title is a little wierd! But that is how I feel! Being the pale almost translucent person that I am, I actually enjoy the cooler weather because the sun doesn't burn as bad! Don't getme wrong, I LOVE the heat and sun, but the burning affect of my poor little nerve endings under my skin, I could go without!
Today at work I spent my lunch outside, UNDER the trees, and guess what? Yup that's right! No sunscreen=sunburn! Even under the trees! So before I went outside at the end of my shift I was in the locker room smothering myself with sun screen, (for the 2 (15) waiting periods for the bus) and I walked out ready to go and what happens? I get heckled. Not such a big deal but hey! I prefer not to be burnt all the time and as a result of that, not to get skin cancer! Of course almost everybody is darker skinned than me so I bet that throughout the summer the heckling will continue. But is that is the price to pay for looking younger than I acutally am, less wrinkles and far less percentage of skin cancer, I am willing to take it!

What the heck!

Ok, so now I feel like like I am griping but hey! It's my blog and maybe if someone reads it, they might have some advice for me!
As stated in the previous blog, things are so confusing right now! As if things weren't confusing enough the fecal matter now has hit the fan. If I thought that I was fed up with it a month ago, I really am mustering enough strength to get out of bed everyday and actually put one foot in front of the other. It seems like the harder that I tried to compensate for inadequecies in my like, the worse it actually got! Why does life always seem to throw the curveballs when the you don't even have a bat. Better yet, no bat and the ball hits you! Repeatedly!